Prison stories:"It was my corner". Yeah! The pastor's sons were also drug dealers, but they went back to church and changed, one of them became a pastor. C usually didn't say much during the small group gatherings, in fact it sometimes seemed as if he wasn't really engaged in the discussion at all. But it turned out that I had misinterpreted his quietness for disinterest.
During the session "How and why should I tell others?" he opened up and it was obvious that God was at work in his life. He told us about the church he went to...
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| Prison Stories: A story of mercy and forgiveness
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"Can I have your boots?"
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"Can I have your boots?"
My blood began to boil; I could not believe my own eyes, there he was, in a bunk 20 feet from my own. I saw him every morning when I woke up; it was impossible to avoid him during the day, his voice echoed in my mind as I fell asleep at night. The rage came back with the intensity I felt 6 years before, but there was nothing I could do about it. Worst of all, he didn't even recognize me.
I was obsessed with getting even; everyday my anger grew more intense, as I thought about that day 6 years ago when he hit me over the head with a rock and stole $60.00 from me. How I had longed to get revenge on this guy and here we were, not only in the same prison in Connecticut, but in the same dorm room. I was getting out soon. But if I hit him, my parole would be cancelled and I would be transferred to another prison.
About a week before I was due to get out he asked: "Can I have your boots when you leave?" I couldn't believe my ears. I thought: "Yeah right, I'd love to give you my boots, but for your face not your feet."
Then something happened that I still don't completely understand. I'm not a religious guy, but a few days before my release I was invited to go to something called Alpha. The volunteers who led this program were really nice, friendly and made me feel welcome.
We were going to watch part 1 of a DVD, on the topic; "How to find the secret of happiness."
They put in the DVD, it skipped the first track and jumped to the next. They tried again and again and again to play track # 1, but each time they tried to get it to the right place, it kept jumping to track # 2. They gave up trying, and let the DVD player have its own way.
So, we watched cut # 2, called "How to change the world around you." Part of it is about Jesus saying: "Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy." A Brit, by the name of Nicky Gumbel was speaking, he said that mercy is giving people what they don't deserve. God does the same for us, we don't deserve mercy but because He loves us He gives us mercy.
I knew what I had to do.
When he said: Don't give people what they deserve, give them what they don't deserve. I started thinking about that guy back in the dorm who had mugged and robbed me. Somehow I knew that I had to let go of the rage and quit thinking of ways to get even.
At the end of the DVD, we were asked: "Well, what do you think, how did what you heard make you feel?" I spoke up; I told the group all about my anger, my scheming about getting even with the guy. I then said: "I now know what I have to do before I leave, I have to give him my boots."
The weird thing in all of this, is that I will be out before I get to see cut # 1. I'm sure that the fact that the DVD player acted up, is because God wanted me to see session # 2 before I got out.
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